Episode 1

I was sitting opposit of him. We were at a restaurant. I didn't feel well.

He was eating in quiet. I knew he knew something big was on my mind, but as always he let me think first, knowing I would start talking when I was ready.

My eyes fell on his arm. It was a warm day of summer- Jun 21. -and he was wearing a short-sleeved shirt. Therefore, his arm was almost completely exposed. Enough so that I could see the faded scars on it. Neat, amost perfectly straight lines that shimmered slightly red on his otherwise suntanned skin. Razorblades, knives, shreds of glass... he told me he stopped the cutting bevore he moved here, but whenever I got at clear look at his arms I saw fresh wounds. They weren't as deep or as long as the older ones, but they were there.

"Jake..."

He looked up from his plate, but I didn't know how to start.

"What?", he asked when I still hadn't said anything.

"Nothing, forget it."

He sight. "Lissy, how often do I have to tell you that..."

"What happend with your mother?"

His face froze, but he didn't say anything.

"Jake what happend? Why did you leave her?"

Still no answer. He still had this icy expression on his face. The one that made it impossible for me to guess what was going on inside his head.

We were staring into each others eyes for what felt like ages and I felt the temper rise inside of me.

After some time, he said with a very steady voice: "You know that I don't talk about this."

As he should have know, that one sentence, flipped the switch inside my head that was called self-controle.

"You don't talk about that? You don't talk about that?!?" I was almost screaming at him and I could see from my periphery that basicly everyone in the room was staring at us.

I kept my eyes lock on his face but he wasn't looking back at me. His gaze was wandering around the room staring at the people that were staring at him. Then he got up and left, leaving me completely stunned at our table. It took me some time to realize what just happend and I